2011 Smile Baby

2011 George Oh we love him!

There is nothing like the first time I got to do a midnight feeding of little George. Just the two of us and he was so sweet.

2011 Welcome Baby

2011 Adore Me Photography

Katie Lamb told me about a great photographer who we ADORE and here is what my first gift to George bought. Priceless images of him as a tiny newborn. Heidi http://www.adoremephotos.com took these and we LOVE them. This was the only week I saw Scharrier in him he changes so much but during that first week he looked like Scharrier. Now he looks like his beautiful mom with a tiny touch of Grandma Sylvia which is Worsley and reminds me of Uncle Denny.

2011 Blessing George our Blessing

 On Sept 11 we gathered as a family for the blessing of George. Both grandmas were able to come to town and be there. Also Aunt Stacy and Bob came from Iowa. The excitement began with Scott and I running late which was all my doing. I was boiling eggs and should have listened to my mom who said to make the food the night before. Stacy and mom left my house at 9 we didn't leave until 10:34am for an 11:00am blessing an hour away. I just knew we would miss it but Scott somehow got us there on time. There may have been some speeding which is very out of character for Scott but we made it in time to repent for speeding. As we walked in they were calling family up to the front. Scott never even sat down and he was followed close behind by Tom. In our church we bless little babies with a name and other blessing they might stand in need of. Men who are worthy and striving to live a Christ centered life who hold the priesthood are invited by the parents to stand in a circle around the baby as generally the father or grandfather gives a blessing. I was blessed by my grandpa Dixon. My dad was not very interested in church in my youth so I was lucky to have Grandpa do it. Anthony gave George his blessing. In the circle was Anthony, Scott, Andrew Sipherd, Sean, Kelly, and Tom (Dixon), Brent, Chad, Collin, and Jeremy (Snow).  I could tell Anthony was nervous. Others would not have noticed but I felt so bad because I knew it was a stressful day for him and I should have began earlier to prepare and be early at arriving so he was more comforted not wondering if we would make it. Then they forgot or could not find the binky. George was crying which is to very loud but with a microphone it amplified quite well and I know Anthony does not handle crying by anyone well especially crying while trying to bless. As all the men in the circle gently place their hands on the baby’s head while Anthony cradles him in his arms. It was beautiful. Anthony cried and began saying George was our families miracle. He is! What a little miracle. He was blessed to know of his families love all the Scharriers, his grandmas, his parents, friends and family. To love and follow the Lord. To enjoy physical health. I cried for the entire blessing I felt so grateful that we had a sweet new family member and that despite all the odds mom and baby were healthy and happy even if sleep deprived.
At the end of the blessing Anthony held him up for the entire congregation to see. I was so super smart to not wear make up as I knew I woudl be crying huge tears of happy! Then he slipped out into the hall to feed him. I went out after him to see if I could help. I got to feed him and tried to burp him but his dad had better luck by moving him back and forth tummy to back. Then when he was changing him George went wee wee all over his beautiful blessing outfit. He was changed out of the wet clothing and then got poop all over. Then after a third change he spit up all I had feed him. We were out of wipes, diapers, changes of clothing and still no binky. Anthony looked despondent as his dream of pictures with George in all white little suit faded and we hoped to find anything clean and dry to put on him. I told Anthony that these are the fun memories we will laugh at and maybe he could wear a white onsie and no one would tell in the photos. Anthony was blessed in a clown outfit. I am not kidding it is a white onsie with a clown on it. George has worn it for fun when he met Grandma Scharrier. It is hard when you have a certain idea of how you want things to happen only to have them fail. But mom Salina is a calm force and she rolls with the punches much better and more often than us Scharriers so she took it all in stride.
We had so much fun with all the cousins laughing and being together with my mom and welcoming George.    

2011 Eyes Open

Grandma Marianne said I have posted no photos with open eyes. I have but this is just for her... now get up here mom and see him in real life:) 
We won't know his eye color they say for up to 8 months to a year. But we know his hair is dark and thick yet they say it could fall out and re grow in later. He still has jaundice:( Dad and Mom are getting very little sleep but are both very happy. Aunt Missy can't imagine living farther away than she does now and feels sad for all the out of town family. It makes the hour away drive not as bad. Now we need to get a fuel efficient car since the Mercedes is a guzzler so Uncle Scott will let me drive down there more.

2011 Move over George Clooney

Jaundice is very common for newborns. In the old days they would lay them in natural sunlight. Today we torture them and they have to lie in tiny beds of light. It is uncomfortable. Anthony is feeling guilt doing it as George screams. It is tough to watch a little buddy in pain and not stop it when all you have to do is pick him up and he snuggles in and settles right down. So Anthony lays next to the machine on the floor in total discomfort trying to soothe his babe. He makes these shh hing sounds softly. I take a turn and hold his Binky for him which is as big as his head he is 5 lbs 0 oz. George is strong. He reaches up and tries to free himself from the spider man mask that must irritate his eyes and head. George then lifts both legs up and swings his whole body over to the side if he had not hit the plastic side he would have rolled over. Salina says "enough-I need to hold him". Every minute spent in the machine is one less holding him at 5 lbs. He is thrilled to be in moms arms free from the mask. He tries to eat but no milk yet from mom so supplements with formula to help flush bilyrubin have begun. There are lots of Georges. King George, Saint George who slew the dragon, Curious George, Geroge Clooney, George Jetson, George C Scott, George Albert Smith, George A Dixon, George of the Jungle, George Bush, But of all the George's I am totally in love with George V Scharrier. Totally completely gaga. 

2011 Holding George

Oswaldo has been feeling left out and since I had to wait to hold George since I had been sick I swaddled Oswaldo the cabbage patch kid and held him while Salina held George. it was enough to spoke Salina into letting me hold the real deal!!!!
I got to change him and dress him and feed him and I worked for his daddy at Towne Storage which shows I love him since I have no idea what I am doing anymore. Boy do his mom and dad love that boy and even Uncle Scott got more interested in him today. He sure has been a big help assembling all the gear and feeding us all.

2011 Thank you for George

I wanted to take a moment and thank the family who made George possible. There are some I could not find photos of but I was able to get my parents Salinas mom and my 4 grand parents. Then I found on my moms side where George A comes form where his name is from Great, Great great, and great great great grandparents of George!

2011 Sweet Baby George

I have never had so much fun at a hospital. We took food to daddy Anth since he is so excited he forgets to eat and little George does not want to eat either and Salina is eating fine so one of three is not bad. George has had lots of visitors. Uncles Tom, Sean and Kelly, Aunt Susan, Aunt Liz, Aunt Teri, Cousin Steve, Erin and her cute hubby they look like movie stars, the home teachers, and that Auntie Missy and her camera flashing in my tiny face again with Uncle Scott reading how to work a car seat. Some of the little cousins got to have a peek from a safe distance Erin, Jami, Sarah and Kevin. Today was circumcision day not a fun thing. He is a little trooper and bringing great joy to our family. We sure wish Grams Scharrier aka Ding Ding and Grandma Bev were here to see in person this little mister cutie pants. Of course both is Grandpa can come see him whenever God will let them have a peek:)

2011 My road to George

17 years ago I fell so in love with Scott, I just knew I would never love another man ever again. A baby changes everything. I have been guarding my heart for 9 months knowing this little one would have me at first breath, but the road was rocky and there were hazards and we didn't know if he or mom Salina would make it. Little George is a blessing and our little miracle. His mom and dad have been trying for years. No route was working even stepping into the adoption path. SO they saved their pennies. Anthony knew from his birth that it would be a challenge for him to be a biological father.
How grateful we are for the light and knowledge from God that inspires science and that hand picked invetrto worked. Salina was under an extreme regimen of pills and shots daily while they worked to harvest her eggs. She is the toughest mentally non complaining woman I have ever meet and it was heartbreaking to see the suffering physically she endured. All the hormones created what is called hyper stimulation which them caused her liver mega problems she was at the hospital almost daily with IVs and not fun testing.
They got a record 16 eggs. Five once fertilized (with Anthonys microscoped- hand picked for the strongest healthy swimmers) took and were healthy embryos. Two implanted. Then one was lost and she started to bleed. We all grieved at the loss of a twin. But Joy seemed tempered as we held our breath and prayed for Salinas health. She had to quit her job and be on bed rest for months. Saline dealt with constant bleeding and wondering if the blood clot created in her womb would keep little George from properly attaching to the wall. The doctors were grim. Each ultra sound and there were lots of them I was just numb. I was so scared something would happen to Salina and I know my brother would be just broken without his Salina and we adore Salina and seeing her so ill so not herself was hard.

But as weeks passed into months her health very slowly improved and then one day little embryo showed us he was George and was finally bigger than the blood clot so the chance of losing him or hurting mom and diminished not completely but enough for us to take a breath and thank the Lord for family and miracles. Still I am always constantly on a vigil of what is the next death or disaster thinking that if I am waiting it will hurt less or I'll somehow be able to stop it. I know it is crazy and exhausting being hyper vigilant. But I thought if we lose little George or worse lose Salina I can't handle it so I will just not feel anything.

After the trial of not having a child of my own I think it was especially hard to watch them struggle with infertility and knowing what it meant if it didn't work. Friends would ask... aren't you so excited? I would smile but inside I wanted to scream no. I am terrified. I don't want to bury another family member. Yes I am drama. I feel things really deep I wonder if it is some sort of compensation for not being able to smell. I didn't buy anything for the baby. I remember the devastation of returning baby items that would not be need years ago and I could not do it again. I watched our family struggle with juggling extreme Joy and fear. Anth would see a cute little bib and bring it home to surprise Salina and she would say we don't even know if we will need it. The hormones truly make you not yourself and I can only imagine seeing blood daily wondering if today was the day you lost the second one. The times in my life where I have been in constant prayer I feel so close to God who is always there but I am fickle and distracted by sparkly and I forget how much he wants my happiness and growth. He always saves the better part for me even when I can't see it at the time. How grateful I am for all the answers I received that I thought were wrong but were exactly what I needed.
Yesterday Aug 5, 2011 at 2 am Salina got up to go to the bathroom and frequent visit for expecting mommies. Her water broke or maybe she wet her pants never having had a baby before she was not sure. A call to the hospital followed by a check at the hospital meant baby was coming. She was 4 days or so form being full term and he was due at the end of August but I kept telling them he would come early. They really wanted him born in August not Sept and he delivered. by about 10 am there was not progress on the dilating so patosen was given and in one hour she went to a 10. A nurse happened by the room for a check and just took a look. You are having this baby now. Anthony went into shock. After and hour and a half of pushing we had our boy! I'm head over heels in love! It is so great to see Anthony as a dad. He feels all this weight and bliss and is loving it. Salina is so calm and happy and beautiful. I love watch her hold him. He looks just like her to me. George makes these adorable noises. Scott says he looks just like a little old man a general authority. Scott calls him buddy. Hello little buddy, Scott says as he snaps photos. Scott won't hold him, he is not a baby person. I am dying to hold him but I am sick and can't yet hold him so I made him the photo on the cell phone wall paper and I cradle that. From the first glance this boy has me for life.