What comes up must go down

Usually we put up Christmas in September. We travel often in the fall and so we can enjoy Christmas we put it up early. This year went so fast here it is almost Christmas and finally up goes the tree. The sad part is when it will have to come down. I don't want it up all year but it is very sad to take it down. Imagine how dusty it would be all year. My darling mother came up for a visit and to see my current show. It was wonderful to have her here and she got to meet Bella. Mom is beautiful and it was fun to watch holiday shows with her. I felt bad to leave her alone as I live at the theater right now but cute Marj saved the days and nights and came to play with mom. What a lucky girl I am to have 2 moms for the week! One of the things I love about our current home is the tall ceilings:) This makes our huge tall tree seem the perfect size. We have tons of ornaments and even with the big tree it kind of looks full. I also put up many of our other decorations this year. I just adore tripping down memory lane as I open each box and place the item around the house. My mom in law has given me some beautiful things over the last years and I sure do love enjoy them each December. Mom and Marj were a big hit with the rest of the cast and came to all the parties with us. They are the LIFE of the party. Scott and Matt have been super cute to come and support Hilary and me. How long can I leave up the tree???

Pain in the neck

I awoke on March 5th with pain in my neck. It got worse each day. After a week I went into the doctor who diagnosed me with sever post traumatic cervical sprain/strain with injured neck and upper back. The funny parts is I HAVE NO IDEA why. Yup I just for no apparent reason am in horrible pain. The doctor said are you sure you have not been in an accident? I think I would remember but I may have been abducted by aliens, hit over the head or something. My x-rays showed my upper spine was straight which is not a good thing. I also have some disks rubbing together and degeneration which is common with lupus and rheumatoid arthritis. I could cry with the pain being this intense:( But they think after a few months of rehab I will be fine. It sure does hurt and the only thing that helps is ice. Marj my little angle came for a few days to do some massage which made me cry like a little baby, she says I am too sensitive I say when we are both dead I will have God put her in my body for a day and I will work on her and show her what it felt like. She wears this necklace which did calm me since I LOVE sparkly things and she is an angel in my life. It kind of feels like whiplash. The only things I can think that may have caused it are... major stress like sleeping with a gun because of bad guys threatening my family, over working on the computer writing a book and developing a website, talking on the phone so much with my business partner that her daughter now say my name when the phone rings no matter who it is, sleeping funny, previous car accidents where I had bad neck injury, and my poor health. Hee hee I guess I can see how it may have happened. Atleast I have cute Scott to look after me:) This yer has been a bugger with health for us between Scott being parched or drooling and me sick or injured we are quite the pair. But you know what, I really do feel blessed and grateful for the many many blessing that touch our lives. I know we are not alone and I know we are being refined- it is just that some days I wish I could stay a little rough around the edges instead:)

Flesh color

I spent the morning at St. Marks Hospital. I am still sick. Today was the 10th day. They did a bunch of tests. The worst part is Aunt Sue. Aunt Sue was sitting at home crying. She had written me off:( She was wringing her hands when I got home. Poor thing. I guess she has thought I look so ill that I was surly dying. I wish she would have come and talked to me about her fears. I guess I am like her mom and so of course she felt unsettled. What made her smile again was that I had flesh colored band aids. When I take her in the always give her bright colors and she dislikes them very much. The funny thing is I would have loved the COLOR. I rather enjoyed the techs that let me look inside myself. With Halloween coming up it is especially nice to see my old bones in there. I have an arsenal of drugs and inhalers-- I am thrilled I did not have to stay in the hospital-- as I would pick up who knows what else:( The Dr. said my days volunteering at the elementary school or around anyone sick are over for now. I can still do my PTA stuff but I will miss the interaction with the kids. The Lupus is a strange thing. I like to say the instead of my because there are people who have had it go into remission and never come back out. With my healthy eating who knows:) The diagnosis today is Sinusitis and some from of pneumonia. I will know later today the rest of the results. The last test I do tomorrow where I (this is gross-- ) hack into a jar. This test I guess helps them know if it is bacterial, viral or fungal and who knows what else. I am most grateful to Marlene who keeps giving me pep talks, to my mom who yelled at me to go in and see someone already, to Marj that really kept it from getting much worse, for hot baths with Arbonnes great herbs that soothe and open up the air passages, Megan who remember that I was going to give it until Friday, Candice who doesn't make fun of my healthy eating, to Scott (he is a hunk) plus he is sweet and helpful and to Aunt Sue for loving me enough to create drama in her head. OH- and the mountain today were wonderful. Fall has come and started to paint all kids of fabulous colors on our big huge beauties. So many things to be grateful for.

Loves of my life... Friends

I can't think of a more perfect quote to explain how much we love our best friends the Kinikini's. Scott and Karson have so much fun together. They are so cute. Like little boys. They get so excited to see each other and love to try and out do each other in weird areas

that only testosterone can being to understand.

Marlene sent me this the latest photo of them together.

They especially love to eat meat together. This is a photo of their favorite meal. It is some sort of meat you

get at a shady Mexican shop where they do not speak English. Recently when Scott got some exciting news Karosn did a very interesting dance/ karate chop thingy in Scott's honor. Scott loves Karson. This made me think about Loves of my life... Friends

Friends & People: I love people of all ages. I love hanging out and laughing, sharing ideas, hopes and dreams. I’m sad to say goodbye. I love to ask questions. I could have been a talk show host. People are fascinating to me. My little friends Kelsie and Lauren are wonderful; the clock turns back and I turn up the imagination, reveling in childhood. My Aunt Sue has always been a sounding board for me, making my painful years more bearable. She can listen for hours without any judgment. Lynda and my Mom are great friends and examples of friendship. Neither of them has any enemies, neither of them is clicky. They have big hearts. Marj is very special to me. I have gospel sisters like Toni, Em and Michelle who are a phone call away. Karin has been my friend since the day I came home from the hospital, all these years and no fights. Anthony has got to be my favorite person, I love being with him. Salina is my new sister I always dreamed of she is amazing. My cousins have always been close to my heart. I love being with them and their kids. Teri is a hero to me. My Aunts, Sister-in-laws I cherish. I wish I lived closer to Leah we always have a great time together. My very best friend is Scott. I am so comfortable around him. We can laugh for hours. Marlene and her family have been our best friends for years. Marlene is the best friend I always dreamed of. We travel and laugh; cry and plan. I often wish I could be more like Marlene then I remember I am supposed to be me. She is organized and a great housekeeper. She is talented. Marlene, Jody, Natalie, and Jen are really fun to be with. We go on these crazy girl trips where we have a blast. They are all mothers, they all stay at home to be Moms, they’re all skinny, have houses, parents both alive, and husbands that work away from home. I admire them and love the things we have in common. Sometimes it’s hard to find a place to fit in. Scott calls me a people magnet. I believe I have a gift; to make people feel at ease and important. People seem to really love being with me. Being a magnet, can be flattering and demanding. During my life I have had many deaths, I also had girls really mean to me growing up which didn’t make me want to run out and be buddy buddy. I dislike letting people down-- sometimes I feel like I’m expected to be a certain way, never a bad day. Father in Heaven has blessed me abundantly. I believe I can be a mother in the next life and I can be one here too in different ways. I love the women I serve with in Young Women’s and the girls I serve. They inspire me and I hope to be worthy of their love. I have a light I need to share and not hide it under a bushel. I am working on being a better woman, friend and Missy. I really like me. I enjoy my own company. I can hardly wait until the next life when I can be friends with all my grandparents. I feel close to them now and imagine what they are like. I wish I knew more, I know I one day will and they will be some of my very best friends. Life wouldn’t be complete without people to love, to learn from, to support and serve. I have wonderful friends from church. Melissa, Laurie, Candice, Leslie, Crystal, and Aubrey. It is great to have Friend who you can share your faith with, that can inspire you to be better.

Sisters

I love my sisters. My favorites are the in law variety. Don't get me wrong I love my sisters too. Today Salina brought over a movie to watch with me. We laughed and it was really nice to get my mind off being sick. Salina and I both love kid stuff so we have a dandy time together. She is really fantastic. Then cute Marj came. She is a sister on the gospel. She worked on me with some massage and herbs. It hurts the day after but helped my sinuses. She is also our witch doctor. Then cute Marlene- the I wish she was my sister- sent me the cutest pages by email to inspire me. She is so talented. And she still remembers that we need to celebrate my birthday. My cute mom called and said she loved me. Leah is my movie star sister. It was a very nice day.