Saturday, January 20, 2007

Nail clippings... from heaven and time for change

My dad used to clip his nail in public. I know it can be gross... to some disgusting. He would be in church, the chapel clipping away. He would do it in the store while talking to a neighbor. It was weird. It was very much my dad. So yesterday in church, my brother and husband were hiding out. They were both about to be put in the Bishopric and were avoiding questions from well meaning friends/ detectives. As they sat there as a super nice man from our ward whipped out his nail clippers and clipped away. First of all Scott and Anthony are rarely together in the same place at church , second they are never in the family history class, third I know my dad loves us from beyond the grave and wanted his favorite boys to know he loved them very much and was proud. We all could feel him yesterday. It gave me much needed strength.

Also there with body and spirit was our missionary "Elder" Soucy. He baptized Scott over 9 years ago. I happened to look back and see him in the hall. What a comfort. Scott is a convert to the church. It took great courage for him to be baptized and he lost most of his friends. He felt so strongly about the gospel and had so much faith he had to be baptized. That is a whole different story, like that he was baptized at midnight. We had so much support on Sunday. Marlene made 2 sheet cakes and a salad, everyone helped at the family dinner after (which Anthony and Scott could not attend as they were off serving). It was so nice to have all the kids there crawling on my and comforting me.

It is not often that you know without a doubt change is coming. Well I'm not sure anything but God could have prepared me for the change headed our way at the beginning of 2007.

My big fear was all my friends were not going to love me anymore. This was due to my keeping my promise to the Stake President to not tell anyone in my ward. The Stake explained that had Scott not been able to be Bishop then the next person they asked would have known they were number 2, the second choice. No one wants to feel like they were number 2 on a list. It also gave my friends and people at church the opportunity to know that we would keep confidences. The challenge was I had been speculating for over a year and being a detective with all of my friends. I love my husband and can see the Lord working through him and it has only been 48 hours since being ordained. He has a great love for all people and a huge desire to serve and make a difference. I sure do love the Bishop. His first night he had a baptism, second night a convalescent center visit, counseling the third night, and appointments the fourth. For the first time in our marriage he did not call me. Generally he calls me all the time, every 5 or 10 minutes to say Hi or Love you. I think that is one of the biggest changes... I am used to being with him or talking to him all the time. Also he used to share everything with me. Now he does not, for which I am grateful. I can see the burdens and worry he is caring and I don't think I could shoulder them like he does. So instead I make him meals, pray often and urgently, smile and hug him and try to do all I can to lighten his load which came on fast and heavy. I see how he is a blessing already to others and for that I am proud and humbled.

1 comment:

Mel said...

The Pearson family still loves you. I think it's funny how you kept speculating about who the new bishop would be, and every time Scott's name was mentioned, you would get a worried look on your face. You're so funny!