No word (sad warning)

There has been several sad baby news in our little church. 2 families have buried their little tiny babies. I went with Scott to comfort the mothers and it was heart breaking. One looked so lost and sad in her eyes. I started to get really scared for the others who were close to delivery or had babies under 4 in our church. I can't imagine burying a child. There is no word in the English language for a parent who loses a child. Why? I think it is the worst death and loss. We call children without parents orphans; we call spouses without each other widows. We should have a word for that loss. I know the deaths in our family circle of children-- leave a hole that just is not totally mended. I guess you never really get over a death- why would you want to get over someone. But time does heal and life goes on. But where a child is gone there is a sadness that lasts- no matter the age. My moms cousin was shot by accident while they were all playing, he was a teenager; everyone is still sad. The other ones are even more sad... and the parents never quite the same. I know the pain that so may who planned to have children feel. I know that Christ will right all wrongs and pains but I think that we may have to wait until the next life for some of the answers, some of the healing. The good news is 5 friends have had health babies this year. My friend had to have an emergency C-section last week and the baby was sent to another hospital for the NICU help, but he is getting stronger and he is darling. We keep praying. Now his mommy is in the ICU. We are going to go and see her:(