Visiting

Today was a really neat day. I got to be with Scott all day and we made visits to friends and church family that are in hospitals all over the valley we live in. It always feels really good to take the time to listen to someone. They were all in different degrees of illness. One that was very sad was at a Alzheimer's center. It made me remember my grandfathers death and suffering with that illness. The cute husband spends all day long there with his wife of over 60 years, he goes home at night only to sleep. I like that they had 2 dogs and a cat that live at the center. As I talked with another very sick woman who is facing death I thought about her suffering and wondered why. Then I thought about the fact that if it weren't for aging and suffering-- would we ever be able to really let go of this life. My belief is our spirit lives on past this life and did not start in this life. One of the people I talked with today said they didn't believe there was ever anything before this life nor would there be anything after. I thought that sounded really yucky. To each his own. For me I love to know I will live again, that I have the opportunity to be with the awesome people I love and miss that have died, to know that my spirit will go on and continue to learn and grow. I don't believe that death means I will sit on some cloud and strum a harp. I think I will still be engaged in learning and loving and growing. As I held the hands today of the ones who are dying I somehow felt at peace thinking of how glorious it will be for them to be in total joy and light. They are children of God, who loves them with out measure. It was great to see so many blessings all around and so many loving people serving those in need. I guess it helped me remember that getting old may have many whys. For learning and experience, perhaps also to help in leaving this phase of life.