No news good news... not true

In my family we often say "No News Is Good News". Today I have decided that any news-- good or bad is better. The no news is making me develop psychosis. We have been at the hospital all day again. I spend lots of time there now. At the beginning of April I got a series of unexpected news. I have a tumor that is over producing cortisol. The doctors are trying to decide if it is in my brain or my adrenals. Now maybe I have more than one:) I figure if you are going to do something why not go for it. If they can operate and it is not cancer I have a chance of a normal life. If not I am glad to know my spirit will go on and my husband has been sealed to me for eternity. So I may have to wait awhile to see him but I will get to see him again, plus there are many many cool dead people I love that I would love to hang out with again. So either way it is a win win. The reason it is hard was some of the other news we got. Our House sold which in this economy is fantastic since we got over what we were asking and the appraisal came in over that. We wish we could back out. I have always loved our views and when you are ill it is nice to have a home to come to after a long day at the hospital. Then Scott was laid off a total shock. He is the hardest worker I know, the company he worked for planned on coming to Utah but with the change in the economy plans changed too and Scott was the only one not in Alabama. Building new Home was in the works but funny thing... with no "salary" they do not want to give you a mortgage. They don't care if Scott makes 10,000 a month in commissions and has thousands in the bank... no salary no mortgage. Which is ironic since a few years ago they gave loans to anyone even if they had no job at all. So the new plan would be to rent for a few years, sock away more money and just pay cash outright. Our Car died but we were happy that it did so before our warranty ended so we only were out a thousand instead of thousands. The side effects of the tumor are not fun, I have lost 3 inches in height which if you are a woman is devastating since the whole weight/ height chart ratio gets ugly. I have extremely high Blood Pressure, no Vitamin D and a bunch of other weird, painful or just mental effects of over producing cortisol. However I am thankful...
1. To know God lives and loves me as his daughter
2. To have a husband that still adores me after 14 years
3. To have never known hunger and naturally loved veggies all my life
4. To have been free all my life to worship, play, believe and work how I want
5. To know that life is eternal and did not start nor will it end on earth
All these reasons are why I have now decided that news is good. It is the not knowing and waiting that is hard. As I wait for the doctors to determine what they think my fate is I can sleep good knowing that none of it is in theirs or my hands. If you are reading this thinking what can I do to help... laugh more, share news if you have it sooner, pray that whatever happens I can handle it and so can Aunt Sue and my family, and know that I am glad to thank God for you in my prayers:)