Busy

What a week. I am starting to really look forward to a vacation from normal everyday busy life. With cute Aunt Sue sick, my new Stake YW calling, Scott still adjusting to Bishop, My Uncle in the hospital, divorce's all around, both Anth's cars broken down, many wards to visit, work, a big virtue event, 2 big dinners to plan and a partridge in a pear tree-- I'm feeling a little spent. So what a treat to be filled with the light and love from the General YW Open house held at Temple Square. I look forward to going every six months. It was one of the reasons I was sad to be released and now am happy to be in YW again. You will be able to read the transcripts off of lds.org in a few weeks which I will love because instead of rushing to jot down all the notes I really relaxed and let the spirit wash over me with ideas and enjoyed the moment. It gave me a totally different perspective on the girls I serve and the power of scriptures and prayer. I got to go with two of the best ladies in the whole world and we had a great day.

Then today Scott went with me to see my Uncle in the hospital. It was tough. He looks really bad. I'm glad my mom isn't up here because I think it would break her heart. Hospitals remind me of my dad being sick. He fought so long and hard, with his heart problems. He was a determined man, he and Scott would always say to me Never, Never, Never give up.

I can't tell if my uncle is fighting or angry. He has suffered from alcoholism for my entire life. I wish I could say I knew him better but I don't think he wanted to know us. He always said he didn't fit in, which is sad. My mom never says anything negative about him or his choices. She is a great example in the not judging arena. I don't judge him-- who am I to judge, anyways? But for some reason he lead a life mostly apart from us. We would see him on most major holidays and at funerals and weddings (before he got really sick). It made me sad to think of him alone. He has friends, but I don't know how close they are. I hope since we have no kids that we won't die alone in a hospital bed.